need a change

it’s 535am and i’m still up, and still in the office. dead tired, and all alone. i’m so miserable. during one of the times i decided to head up to take a look at the setup/rehearsal, i faced the sea and was greeted by the strong wind. i decided that, i needed a change. a change of environment, a breath of fresh air.

i’m tired.

so tired with what i’m doing. i feel that it’s just not worth my weekends, or my late hours. and it’s not definitely worth, with what i’m getting at the end of every month.

i don’t think i’m incapable of events. i must admit i have amazed myself once or twice. i have done events that made me really feel that i’ve exceeded my capabilities. and i’m proud of that. but again, i’m just so tired. i want more time with family, dex, time to pick up the school books again. i guess in the material world, papers are really needed. but yeah, i have to wait till i’m free from this place.

i hope it’s soon. i wanna start doing something different. something that rewards me not just emotionally, but of course, financially too. and you know what, i think i can do.